life will tear you apart you are so fucked up
I feel it.
I'm changing.
Into something I don't really like.
Something impure and heartless.
I can't go back anymore.
Hands off me. I loathe myself.
I loathe myself because of you.
You're letting me do these awful things.
Yeah, they're do not seem awful to you right now, you may be even enjoying this...
but that's just for now. Just because you're blind or pretending to be so.
But you know how it's gonna be after. Slowly ticking bomb.
You're saying it's fine 'cause you can endure it.
It makes me want to crush you. 'cause you're letting me do so.
I have so little experience thus I want to explore how far can I go, where would be your limit?
Yeah, to reach the line you can't hold on anymore, start hating me and fight back.
In order to do that I may even have to become everything I despise.
Someone I never wanted to be. Well, some people would call it 'growing up'

I don't want to grow up.
I'm tired of hating myself.
Right now I'm still able to stop.
And there's only one way I can delay the decaying.
I'm gonna follow it.